the emotions you've struggled with deeply your whole life

Last week I issued a challenge to spend some time actively being open to a memory from your Deep Past that is currently impacting your life today. I was going to send more challenges last week, but my internet went down! So here we are. On Sunday morning I had the chance to hear from a reader who had done the exercise and had an incredible memory. She gave me permission to share the story with you today. In her memory, she was standing in front of a crowd of people, speaking to them, when-- suddenly-- an evil spirit hurled a knife into her throat, where it lodged in her throat chakra. She wrote that she felt it was not a real knife, so much as harmful words. That is often exactly the case. (Learn more about chakras here) She wrote, "I’ve always been terrified to speak in church and struggled with a slight stutter. I believe this is where that came from." As she began healing from the situation, she wrote, "It’s amazing how the emotions I have been releasing from this are ones I have struggled deeply with my whole life." When we dig into the Deep Past, we find the emotions we have struggled with most deeply in our lives  As we worked on this energetic knife, we found related issues on a number of levels--but with some effort we got the majority of it cleared. Later that day, this friend had the chance to actually speak in church--an incredible opportunity to heal from the tragic event she had unknowingly been dealing with for her whole life. One thing she had written to me about was that she feared her boldness. Today she wrote to me, "It was funny. This morning my kids were saying something about my dad and I realized they are some boundaries that need to be set and for the first time I felt like I could really tell him what he NEEDS to hear." YES!!!! That is what happens when we heal our Deep Past trauma. Once we start clearing the deepest levels of our trauma, we effortlessly feel as though we can do the things we know we need to do in order to be true to our highest selves.  my work in the night Last night I had an experience with a Deep Past memory myself. At church I had felt strongly impressed that I needed to reach out to a loved one and issue them a warning. Their baby is due for her six-month shots and flu shot this week and their family has some genetic issues affecting their methylation pathways... basically vaccines for that baby are going to be very, very dangerous and the side effects may be irreversible. My position these days is that if people want to inject themselves without researching first, that is their business, and I try to keep out of it--but in this case, I've felt very strongly that I need to be the voice of warning and let them know... this might not turn out so well. I've been afraid. I'll admit it. I don't want to damage the relationship and this person already thinks I'm a little woo-woo in general, but especially about this issue (despite the fact that this person has never even read a package insert and couldn't name 5 ingredients in a shot, couldn't tell you what VAERS is short for, couldn't tell you what the NVIC Act is or does, etc). But as I was lying awake last night thinking about whether or not to engage in this discussion, I remembered the story I related above, about the knife in the throat chakra. I asked: do I have anything lodged in my throat chakra from the Deep Past that is affecting my feelings on speaking up about this issue? That is when I saw it. A gigantic boulder lying on top of my heart-chakra-in-throat-chakra. All chakras have seven more chakras inside them. So basically this boulder was crushing the chakra inside my throat chakra that connects with my heart--the ability to speak from the heart. I saw that it wasn't fully crushed, but that the boulder was squishing probably 80% of this area. It was obstructing my ability to speak fully from my heart, and it was adding an immense amount of pressure to me whenever I thought about speaking that way. No wonder I felt so blocked about speaking from the heart! Not just in this, but in many areas of my life. I remembered--or even imagined, if that's what resonates with you--that I'd had an experience of immense fear of speaking out during the War in Heaven era, and in an attempt to keep myself safe, I'd pulled a boulder to me and hidden under it. It had caused me damage, but I was glad for that, because I felt like it kept me safe, and gave me an excuse not to speak from the heart. That way, even if I did speak boldly about something, if people took it "the wrong way" I could always have the backup excuse of, well, at least I didn't speak that from my heart. But sometimes you gotta speak from your heart! And not just 20%. 100%. So while I couldn't sleep, I spent the time working on removing that boulder and repairing the damage. When it was done, I went downstairs and texted this loved one to please call me in the morning. I don't know how the conversation will go, but I do feel like I can safely speak from my heart! the underlying reasons   I heard from several clients this past weekend that the concept of Deep Past trauma was intimidating to them. "I already have so much to work on just from this YEAR, let alone my childhood and let alone the Deep Past!!" was the sentiment.  And no kidding! I totally get it! It's a LOT! Each of us has an enormous amount of stuff to work through. I work on myself every day and have for years and am still remarkably un-integrated. It's okay! It's a process! We just do a little here and a little there and focus on having happy lives as we go! But the thing about the Deep Past is: it is what underlies the trauma of this year.  It is what underlies the trauma of our childhoods. It is the reason behind what we experience.  This means that when we start clearing out the Deep Past, we automatically heal from the stuff today that is connected. understanding the icebergs All of our traumas are like icebergs. The stuff we deal with today, the stuff we notice? That's the tip of the iceberg. There are layers and layers of trauma associated with each of our issues, but in the end, each issue is like its own iceberg. In normal energy work, often we're stuck trying to heal the top layer of the issue, and then we wonder why new layers surface over and over again. Sometimes surface-layer energy work does the trick, and sometimes it does the trick very well. But to get to the root, you have to go deeper. When we dig into our Deep Pasts,-- that is how we go deeper. When we start with the Deep Past, we have the chance to address and even eradicate things we may have struggled with deeply our whole lives, in a much more thorough and radical way. This is not something that will complicate your daily efforts for healing: this is something that simplifies the daily efforts for healing.   Registration Closes on Saturday Registration is closed. PS. The Class Schedule, for those that missed it Remember, this class will be RECORDED so if you cannot make every week live, you will still have access to the recordings afterward. WEEK 1, October 3: Introduction and the Timeline  We begin by exploring the basics of how life works as a whole--not just starting here. We cover the things that are known to have existed in the timeline of premortality, and cover: - Understanding the role of premortality in life today - Covering the Timeline of what happened when - Identifying "hotspots" in the Timeline, or times that are linked to trauma in nearly all individuals WEEK 2, October 10: War in Heaven Trauma  The War in Heaven was by far the most traumatic thing any of us had ever experienced--and for many of us, is STILL the most traumatic thing we have ever experienced. Any type of healing that only covers mortal trauma is, in my opinion, deeply flawed. In Week 2 we will cover different types of War in Heaven Trauma and begin learning how to identify and heal it in ourselves and others. We cover: - What types of trauma were commonly incurred during the War - How to identify War-based trauma - Exercise for identifying and healing War-based trauma WEEK 3, October 17: The Errand of Angels In Week 3, we discuss WHAT angels both dead and pre-born are up to. We cover the various roles angels play, as well as the kinds of trauma those roles can lead to, and experience an exercise for identifying our own past roles. We cover: - Scriptural discussion of angels - Identifying the many roles angels play and have played - Exercise for identifying roles YOU have played and how they currently affect YOUR life (something you can use for clients as well) WEEK 4, October 24: Premortal Contracts Every major life experience, as well as the way we perceive our day-to-day life, is linked to our premortal contracts. Some of our contracts are with God, but overwhelmingly our contracts are with ourselves and with each other, and overwhelmingly those contracts not made with God have their roots in trauma--which means that once the trauma is healed, we can shift out of our old contractual paradigms and life paths and into new paradigms of contentment and joy. This week, we cover: - What contracts are and how they impact our day-to-day life and major life events - Understanding contracts for depression, anxiety, childhood abuse and neglect, chronic unemployment, and more - WHY we agreed to certain contracts--and how to change these contracts - Digging for the ROOT of trauma-based contracting for easy and graceful replacement - How to identify which contracts are safe and good to be removed, and which ones we really should NOT mess with HALLOWEEN: NO CLASS No class because lots of people do stuff for Halloween. *Possible* optional online hangout with me for live, anything-goes Q&A. (Sounds like fun to me!!) WEEK 5, November 7: Premortal Battles and Castaway Spirits Think we all lived happily ever after before we were born? Many of us served roles protecting the livingfrom the influence of evil spirits--and these protecting roles often led to significant spiritual wounding. In this week we cover:  - Identifying premortal trauma from evil spirits - Removing contracts specifically tied to these events - Identifying and healing "castaway" trauma  - Exercise for healing castaway trauma for the self or others WEEK 6, November 14: The Enlightened Path  Memory exists for one primary reason: to give us the tools we need to live in the present more effectively. With greater understanding of the past comes greater capability for present and future peace, enlightenment, and continued resolution of the past. We conclude this course with: - Tools for continued implementation of premortal healing - Discussion of the interplay between premortal healing and current healing - How to take what you've learned and move forward with it personally and as a facilitator for others. ~~~ There will be an optional opportunity for certification in Duzett Method Deep Past Resolution. This course is designed for everyone--seasoned practitioners and introductory newbies. Muscle testing skills are not necessary. Again, this class will be held ONLINE and will be RECORDED--so you can take it and participate wherever you are on this magnificent planet, and if you cannot be there while it is being recorded, you will have access to the recording after the fact. It will be LIVE online, meaning that I will be recording it live in your online presence, and I will be available for live Q&A.