Sunday, July 26, 2015

Reading Faces

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One thing that I have really loved in my life is the ability to read faces.

No, I don't mean the ability to look at someone's smile and know they're happy, or to see their frown and know they're sad.

I mean the ability to read faces, as in the ancient Chinese art of mien shiang. With the proper know-how, you can understand a lot about a person from their face alone. Check out this picture from the Mien Shiang Institute. On that face you can see lines of grief, of lost love, of heartbreak. You can see a "suspended needle" between the eyes. All of these "wrinkles" are actually forms of information--which is to say, to one person they are just wrinkles, and to a face reader, you can see a person's life in them.

Personal experience

I've been studying mien shiang for about ten years now, and early on in my journey I decided not to take it too seriously, because in one of my closest relationships, the other person's nose indicated some life issues that I knew were false for that person.

Only then, years into knowing this person, they confessed a lifelong secret that ended up confirming what their face had said all along. I took it as a verification that mien shiang can actually be very accurate.

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Being able to read someone by their face gives a person a lot of opportunities to serve and a lot of chances to treat people the way they need to be treated. If you can look at someone and know immediately that their primary emotion is worry, that they have a difficult relationship with their father, they struggle with money but have talents in the creative arts--that's a lot of info to pick up based on nothing more than a glance at a face. But all that knowledge can be used to treat others more kindly and more personally.

Colors, marks, sizes, shapes

In face reading, everything matters. The size and shape of each part of the face. Its coloration. Any marks--wrinkles, moles, warts, skin tags. They all have meaning. The ears reflect our early childhoods--but also reflect certain talents, such as musical ability or creative writing. The eyebrows signify the capability for anger (the more eyebrow you have going on, the more prone to anger). The area between the eyebrows, the yin tong, indicates the relationship with the father. The overall shape and coloration of the face itself indicates the primary Chinese element that person channels (metal/grief, fire/mania, earth/worry, etc). If you know what you're looking at, you can discern a lot about a person by examining their face alone.

Mien shiang is a very Taoist skill. And as you know, I do love the Tao!

Possible class?

I've thought about teaching a series of classes on this skill for some time. If anyone is interested, please leave a note in the comments. I'm still trying to decide if I want to do it.


The face is an amazing source of information. Face reading can turn images into information and be an amazing tool for healing (through facial "diagnostics" both physical and emotional) and just for getting to know people better.

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

Last day to sign up for classes

Today is the last day to sign up for the Empath classes! Sign up here. We'll be talking about how to recognize what type of empath you are and the specific challenges you face. The second class will cover a number of tools to use to make life as an empath more comfortable. The third class will be about using empathetic gifts to serve others. It will be a good series!

Understanding the Saturn Return Part 2

First, I forgot to link to my post on the Gospel and reading the stars. It's a good place to start when you're coming from a Gospel perspective and learning about reading the stars.

Now, as I was pondering the post I put up yesterday, I realized I'd forgotten something. That something is consequences.

We can clear our "karma," by which I mean the spiritual consequences of our actions. We do that through repentance. We turn our sins over to Christ through the Atonement, and that clears our souls of the darkness of sin.
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However, just because we've repented of something, doesn't mean that we don't have to deal with the consequences of it. We do. Sometimes repentance drastically changes the external consequences of a choice, but sometimes it doesn't. You might repent of driving under the influence, but that may not change whether or not you have to do jail time.

Similarly, with the Saturn return, you can clear your "karma," or the spiritual weight of your sins and traumas, via the Atonement, but that does not automatically clear you from facing the consequences of your actions.

Sometimes it might, but not necessarily. However, it is possible to face even negative consequences with positivity. Negative times in the Saturn return can be approached from a place of humility and optimism, and a willingness to look for the lessons in every situation. Having that kind of attitude will make even an unpleasant Saturn return more pleasant--if only because you are actively looking for the bright side.


Repentance does not always excuse us from natural consequences. Spiritual work is the most important kind of work, but even so it may not prevent unpleasant things from happening to us. Facing negative times with humility and faith can make all the difference.

Monday, July 20, 2015

Understanding the Saturn Return

I've blogged about the Saturn Return before, if only in my post about Gone With the Wind. Gone with the Wind was written zodiacally, which you can read about at that post. What made me realize it was the "coincidence" of Scarlett O'Hara's "karma" catching up to her at age 28--the same time as the Saturn Return. 

What is the Saturn Return?
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All the planets move cyclically. Saturn returns to the same position once every 29.5 years. That is the time frame of the Saturn Return: between the ages of 28-30, and again from 58-60, and even again from 88-90 if you live a really long time. There's a few-year window there because Saturn is such a slow-moving planet. Here is a calculator to calculate your own personal Saturn return.

Saturn is astrologically known as the "Lord of Karma." Basically the idea is that as it returns, all your karma comes back at you. You might get away with being a crappy person for most of the time, but once that Saturn Return hits, you can be sure you will reap what you have sown.

Or at least that's the idea. You don't have to believe in this stuff. I'm not really sure I do. I still have a few years to go before I experience my first Saturn Return. So, who knows. But it is interesting.

Here's what one set of Saturn bloggers has to say about it (emphasis mine):
If you’re in your mid-to-late twenties or even in your early thirties, you are close to the heart of your first Saturn Return, and are probably feeling the crack of Saturn’s whip more than ever. If everything feels like chaos, if your relationships are breaking down and you’re questioning your career, your friendships, your sanity, and your very life, it is likely that it’s just the ripples of your Saturn Return descending. [...]
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As you hit the Saturn Return, you’re about to leap off the cliff of childhood and you feel estranged from external support systems. Now you can’t be taken care of; You have to learn to fend for yourself and figure out what truly constitutes the ground below. What internal resources do you draw upon for a safe landing if you are to make this leap, kicked out of the nest once and for all? Once you finish your Return, you’ll probably have a much better idea.
The time of the Saturn Return is a time of concentrated, personalized growth. As another blogger writes:
Essentially, your Saturn return is a test. What is it testing? Maybe a better question is, what is is NOT testing?! Saturn is a hard taskmaster, & Saturn wants you to learn the difficult lessons so that you can move forward with your life. During your Saturn return, you will be asked repeatedly to prove that you have learned from the challenges you’ve faced over the last 29 years.
During your Saturn return, it might feel like everything is thrown into turmoil, from your relationships to your career, even down to your family situation & where you live. 
I sometimes think of Saturn as a kind of loving bully — the cruel-to-be-kind type. He picks us up, turns us upside down & shakes everything out of our pockets. The stuff that stays is the stuff that is working. Everything else gets shaken loose.
That same article has a whole list of things to do to survive your Saturn return. Go check out her site for the list, but some of the things that stood out to me were:
- Don't compare yourself to others
- Take responsibility for your life
- Recognize the power of your own free agency
- Let go of grudges and bitterness
Saturn: Lord of Karma, or Giant Mirror?

I've thought about this a lot. I don't believe that someone's future is "written in their stars," or anything like you might hear on an astrology site or A Knight's Tale (<--great movie). To me, the stars feel more like a mirror. They mirror who we are.

So to me, it would make sense that if you'd cleared out a lot of your issues before hitting those crucial years, your Saturn return would not be a big deal. If you haven't cleared out your issues, the Saturn return would be a big deal.

Preparing for a Saturn Return

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I'm actually only 26, so I have a little while to go before my own Saturn return. But my husband is coming up on his first Saturn return, so the idea of it all has been on my mind.

It seems to me that, if any of this stuff is actually valid at all, the best way to prepare for a Saturn return happens to be the best way to prepare for anything. Scriptures, prayer, meditation, service, temple worship, magnification of callings. All those things cleanse the inner vessel. If my theory about the planets as a mirror is correct, repentance and a change of heart would take care of the issues associated with the Saturn return. You can't deal with a negative reflection if you've already cleared your personal negativity.


The Saturn return happens every 29.5 years, but the effects of it are felt for the years surrounding that crucial midpoint. The things that happen to us during the Saturn return reflect the lessons we need to prove we've learned. Saturn may be considered kind of a bully, but it's all to help us grow. Prepare for a Saturn return with spiritual preparedness and clearing out the negative aspects of the self.

Sunday, July 19, 2015

irrevocably decreed in heaven.

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You know what they say about karma.

I've been thinking about karma a lot lately. What goes around comes around, and all that. The idea that we all reap what we sow.

This is what has to say about the Latter-day Saint faith and the Hindu beliefs on karma (emphasis mine):

By 600 B.C. many Indian Hindu priests and philosophers believed in a doctrine labeled Karma-Samsara. Karma means action or acts, and refers to the accumulation of results a person reaps from his every act and thought, be it good or bad. There is a strong similarity between this and the “law, irrevocably decreed in heaven before the foundations of this world, upon which all blessings are predicated.” (D&C 130:20.) The difference is that Hindus believe that the law of karma is absolutely unalterable. Their belief in Samsara, the wheel of rebirth or reincarnation, states that every person will be reborn into a status (which could be human, animal, or inanimate) that is the inevitable result of his actions. Thus, Hindus believe that people who are born into a high caste deserve to be where they are, and so with all creatures. We Latter-day Saints also believe we are born where we should be, but that a just and loving Father in heaven has decided where we can best perform in this mortal sphere of activity. We believe we reap the rewards of our actions, but we also believe in the atonement of Jesus. Were it not for this merciful provision, we would be left with nearly the same doctrine as the Hindus. That is, we would be left to eternally pay the price of our sins.
Basically, where we differ in belief is:
I thought this was funny.
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- past life stuff
- reincarnation stuff
- that people have to pay the price of their own sins; no one can intervene

However, as a faith, we do belief in the concept of reaping what we sow, and that "There is a law, irrevocably decreed in heaven before the foundations of this world, upon which all blessings are predicated—And when we obtain any blessing from God, it is by obedience to that law upon which it is predicated" (D&C 130:20-21).

Those verses are so interesting to me. There is a law irrevocably decreed in heaven, upon which all blessings are predicated. 

All blessings? All of them? All of them have a law associated with them?

Here are some blessings that come to the top of my head: 
- happiness
- money
- temporal safety and security
- freedom
- happy family
- peace of mind 
That scripture would indicate that if we are not currently experiencing those blessings, it may be because we are in violation of the laws "irrevocably decreed in heaven." It's kind of similar to the idea of karma. 

So what are the terms to achieve those blessings, according to the law? I don't really have the answer to that. Something to pray about and ponder.

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In energy work you realize that agency and personal responsibility are at the heart of healing. So many physical ailments are caused by spiritual and emotional components, and cannot be healed until the person is willing to take responsibility for their own self. A lot of times, for example, physical ailments are caused by unforgiveness. You might not have a lot of say in what people do to you, but you always have a say in how you handle it. Being unwilling to let go and forgive can cause a lot of physical health problems. Until we use our agency and take personal responsibility for our own emotional, spiritual, physical health by exercising forgiveness, for example, we will suffer.

I have a lot of thoughts about this idea and I may write about it further. I've been thinking a lot recently about the Saturn Return as well, and how it relates to this concept, and to agency and personal responsibility and the laws decreed in heaven. But I'll have to save that for another day.

Friday, July 17, 2015

loved by things

In the past few months, I've had the most bizarre experience of feeling loved... by things.

My grandmother sent me an amaryllis bulb for Christmas. I've never been into plants, really, until recently--I could just never get them to live. But this bulb had other plans. I forgot about the thing until a few weeks after I received it, when I found it sprouting out of its box--with no soil, no water, and only the light that came through the cardboard of its box. Incredible.
Generic amaryllis. Mine is better. ;) Image here.

It grew and grew and grew, and had flowers on it the whole Christmas season on multiple stalks. When the flowers died, the plant sprung forth six new leaves that ended up being about three feet long each when I finally decided to cut them off.

But even that didn't kill this amaryllis--it's still alive and on my counter, and has a new leaf on it that's probably two and a half feet long. People with energetic sight can easily see the aura on this plant. Whenever I see or think about it, I just feel this enormous feeling of love. It's like this plant just really wanted to be in my life. I am so grateful for it!

My garden is similarly rocking at life right now, for the first time ever. I have dozens of plants that are just thriving and it is amazing to me. I have more produce than I know what to do with. I'm going to dehydrate it and add it to my food storage; I just got my oxygen absorbers in the mail. I've never had good luck with my gardens before, but this year everything seems to be growing with abandon. Similarly, every time I go out to my garden, I see this green aura (green is the color of the heart chakra) and I just have this huge sense of symbiotic love, belonging to me and my plants. Like we are sustaining each other with love.

A while ago, I had a weird experience where I knew that I was not experiencing my own feelings (normal for an empath)... but I couldn't figure out whose feelings I was feeling (also normal for an empath). When I looked into it, it turned out to be my house's feelings! My house was upset on my behalf! It was so bizarre but when I cleared my house's emotions, my own went back to normal. And I thought: does my house seriously love me? Is this even possible?

I decided I don't see a reason to believe it's not possible. So I love my house back and thank it for being protective of me.

In Visions of Glory: One Man's Astonishing Account of the Last Days, which I am not endorsing but have read, Spencer talks about plants and inanimate objects feeling love for the people in their lives. I love that idea and due to my recent experiences, I feel it is true. The plants, the animals, even the stuff in our lives is capable of love. All intelligence is capable of love because it is the most basic--and most powerful--feeling that there is.

I've been considering buying a copy of the new smash hit organization book, The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up: The Japanese Art of Decluttering and Organizing. I still haven't bought it, but I've read a lot of reviews, and one of the things the author recommends is verbally thanking all your belongings for their service in your life every day. I love that idea. Our things do serve us and I believe they are receptive to our gratitude.


Could it be that our things can love us? Consider the possibility that even the inanimate objects in your life are sending love and grace to you with every passing minute.

Ask and ye shall receive.

I was recently called into my ward's Relief Society Presidency. This was my first presidency lesson.


My mother-in-law once was challenged to pray about what one thing she could change about her life to bring her family closer together. She got a very clear answer: nightly family dinner. This practice did indeed bring her family together.

Nephi asks his father to ask the Lord.
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Earlier this summer, I felt inspired to pray about what skills Heavenly Father would like me to learn by September. It had never occurred to me to ask such a question before in prayer, but I did end up getting an answer! An answer I've been busy working on.

When Nephi broke his bow, he built a new bow and then asked his father to ask the Lord where to find food. He did find food for his hungry family. 

We got the Word of Wisdom because Emma Smith asked Joseph Smith if he would please ask the Lord if chewing tobacco was really okay. It wasn't until Joseph Smith asked the Lord about this that we got the Word of Wisdom. 

The moral of these stories: there are some things the Lord can't tell us unless we ASK. Asking the right questions is imperative to getting the most out of prayer and out of life.

In my own life, I recently realized that I've been praying all wrong. As an example, what good is a prayer that pleads, "Help me get out of debt," when I'm not changing anything about how I live my life? A better thing to pray would be to ask, "How do You want me to get out of debt? What resources have You sent me to use to get out of debt? What one thing can I do today or this week to reduce my debt?"

Framing the debt issue in the form of actionable questions enables the Lord to answer us in more specific ways, and gives us the opportunity to act by the Spirit.

Almost every issue can be handled this way--through questions that empower both God and the asker to give and get far more helpful responses through prayer. 

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Instead of praying, "help my kids be good!" we could pray, "What one thing can I do today to help my children make better choices?"
Instead of praying, "bless me with a missionary experience today!" we can ask, "Who am I supposed to share the gospel with today, and how am I supposed to do it?"
Instead of praying, "make me happy," we could ask, "What action items could I take today to increase my own happiness?"

There is an unlimited number of questions we can ask the Lord, and we can expect to receive answers. A great scripture about this is in 1 Nephi 15:7-11:

 8 And I said unto them: Have ye inquired of the Lord?
 9 And they said unto me: We have not; for the Lord maketh no such thing known unto us.
 10 Behold, I said unto them: How is it that ye do not keep the commandments of the Lord? How is it that ye will perish, because of the hardness of your hearts?
 11 Do ye not remember the things which the Lord hath said?—If ye will not harden your hearts, and ask me in faith, believing that ye shall receive, with diligence in keeping my commandments, surely these things shall be made known unto you.

We are constantly invited to inquire of the Lord. What questions have you asked Him lately?


Asking questions of the Lord is the first step to developing better prayer. The second step is learning better how to receive an answer.

Take ten minutes and go into a quiet place. Close your eyes, take some deep breaths, and in prayer, ask the Lord to remind you what it feels like when He tells you "yes." The scriptures describe this feeling as a burning in the bosom. You may feel some kind of warmth in your chest, or feelings of comfort and peace. Then, thank the Lord for the reminder, and ask for a reminder of what "no" answers feel like. 

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Compare and contrast. Go back and forth with yes and no until you feel confident in your ability to decipher a yes or no answer to prayer very quickly. The answers God sends us are very, very subtle at times. Setting aside time to practice feeling those feelings on my own time has helped me become a lot faster at discerning God's answers to my prayers when it really counts. 

Another technique I have used to improve the success of my prayers has been to write down the things I want to ask the Lord ahead of time, and then actually ask Him with my pen and paper at the ready. This talk by Elder Don R. Clarke of the Seventy talks about the importance of writing down spiritual impressions. When I write down the answers I get from the Lord right away, as soon as I get them, I am better able to act on them in a timely manner. 

One of the most important things about receiving prayerful revelation is that we act on our prayers right away. When we act without delay, we are showing God that we take Him and His divine, all-loving counsel seriously. The more we act in faith on the answers we receive, the more answers He can and will give us.

I have a testimony of asking questions in prayer, and I know that when we ask empowering questions of the Lord, He answers them. I know that when we practice asking better questions, listening intently, and acting immediately, we are blessed with powerful, insightful, personal revelation that has the power to change and bless our lives and the lives of our families and those around us. In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

Thursday, July 16, 2015

solipsism; or, you're so vain.

You're so vain, you probably think this blog is about you.

I'll never forget it. It was one of the most mind-shattering moments of my life.

It was 2008. Springtime. I lived in Orem, Utah. I had to get to school. I got on the bus feeling nervous and self-conscious. My hair wasn't dry. My heels were starting to show some wear and tear from overuse (back in the day when I only wore heels. Ha!). I sat down and noticed a woman sitting there a few seats past me.

She was overweight, dressed in ill-fitting clothing, and looked pretty unkempt. I thought: "That poor lady! She is probably sitting here thinking the same thing I'm thinking... that everyone on this bus is judging me this whole bus ride." I stopped and had my moment of realization. I had been too busy being self-conscious about my own self to really care about what that lady was up to. 
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Realization #1: People are way more wrapped up in their own lives than they are wrapped up in yours.

Then I realized, I hadn't judged this lady, besides to observe her general state, and my reaction to her was one of sympathy and solidarity.

Realization #2: Not everyone who observes you is judging you.

Then I realized, even though this lady was possibly sitting there feeling so self-conscious about herself, it didn't matter. I didn't know her name. I had no idea where she lived. I had no idea who she was. Even if I had been all judgey-pants about her, it wouldn't have mattered, because then she was going to get off the bus and continue her normal life, and I would get off the bus and continue my normal life, and we'd probably never interact again. And this hadn't even been an actual "interaction."

Realization #3: Even if people judge you, in most cases, they don't even know your name and won't even care or remember tomorrow.

And now that I am blogging on solipsism, years and years later, I'll add realization #4:

Realization #4: This giant realization in my life was in itself solipsistic!

Oh well. I'll take it. The overall experience left me significantly less solipsistic, at least in my own mind. (See what I did there?)

What is solipsism?

This is the best explanation of solipsism I've read so far (from this article, which is worth reading if you care about, you know, solipsism). Emphasis mine:
Solipsism is to doubt the existence of the world that the person perceives and retreating to the only thing the person does not doubt; her own conscious mind.

In the context of the nature of existence and justified belief, Solipsism is the position that the mind is the only thing that can be known to be true and that knowledge of anything outside the mind is unjustified. 
That is just a fancy way of saying that solipsism means “I believe I’m the only one that is right base on what only I know; so you must be wrong even if you can prove you are right.” 
This is a very informative post from someone else on why solipsism matters. Worth a read. He uses a relevant illustration in this post:
Journaling in my presence? He must
be journaling about ME!!!!
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Consider Ian Ironwood's tremendous adventure in female solipsism, which he explored by the simple device of writing in a notebook in the presence of a number of women.
The lesson of the story is that every single aspect of the response from a group of 14 women (13 co-workers and a boss) was based on a) her solipsistic belief that I was writing about her based solely on the fact that she didn't know WHAT or WHOM I was writing about b) her belief in the absence of evidence that my stubborn silence was proof that I was writing about her and c) the belief that every other woman in the group was conspiring against her over the imaginary book for some reason.
Read the entire thing. It may sound absurd, but speaking as a published author, I assure you that you could easily replicate his experience in very nearly any group of women today.
The writer goes on to list a solipsism test you can expose your friends to in your spare time. But essentially, solipsism is the term for egoistic self-absorption that makes a person--but more typically, a woman--think that everything that happens, everything that people think and say, is All. About. Her.

My moment on the bus that day shook me from (at least some of--most of?) my solipsism when I realized: not everyone on the bus was thinking about me. This bus ride was actually not about me at all for the vast majority of people. Ironically, I came to that conclusion by solipsistically observing my own thoughts and projecting them onto everyone else ("well, if I don't really care how that lady looks because I am too busy obsessing over my own life, then surely other people are too busy obsessing over their lives to care that much about how I look! Because my personal experiences totally merit being projected onto everyone else!"). Okay. It was still a solipsistic realization. But since that moment, I found myself becoming significantly more objective and less ego-centric in my daily life.

Signs of Solipsism

If people are talking and their conversation slows or stops when you come near, do you automatically assume that they were talking about you?
Rationalization hamster, a
common consequence of solipsism.
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If you read a critical yet unspecific line on a friend's Facebook page or blog, do you automatically assume that it is all about you?

If you see someone writing in their journal and occasionally looking up at you as they do it, do you assume they must be writing about you, even if you are complete strangers?

If someone makes a comment about the costs of the medical system from the obese, and you are obese (just as an example), do you automatically assume that the comment was a personal slam against you and feel a need to defend yourself? (Other examples would be someone bringing up a study on this or that and you thinking that the other person bringing it up was a commentary all about you.)

All of these are signs of solipsism--the practice of assuming that everything everyone else is up to and thinking and doing all day long is all about you. (There is more to solipsism than just that, but for the purposes of this article, that's the aspect I'm going to focus on.)

Since my realization that day, I have found myself jumping far less to the conclusion that people are commenting or thinking about me me me all the same. My default assumption is now to give people the benefit of the doubt and assume that they are actually not talking about me, because really, why would they? When my brother died, a total two people bothered to check on me. That was two years ago. Even this blog only gets a handful of hits every day ( I think yesterday's post got all of seven entire views, yay! Probably only half of them were mine!), and essentially no one I know locally in real life except basically my mom even reads it. So why would people who can't even be bothered to read my blog or check in on me when my brother dies bother yakking about me in real life?

And even if they are yakking about me in real life... so?

Decreasing my solipsism in these matters has made a huge positive difference in my life. But, easier said than done.

Why solipsism matters

Solipsism matters--I'm writing about it on this blog about energy healing--because it is a crucial determinant in how happy people are. In how happy women are. The more solipsistic you are, the less happy you will be--and the less grounded in actual observable reality. Solipsism is a part of the matrix that seems inborn to the female psyche, but doesn't have to stay that way. Solipsism cripples logic and rational thinking. It encourages selfish thinking, self-centered thinking, irrational thinking, and emotional rationalization (or "hamster-wheeling") and such thinking and behavior is not really called for. From the scriptures we learn that putting our own egos aside in the service of others is the way to happiness: to dwell in a solipsistic state is to put the ego on a pedestal and spend our time and energy rationalizing it all. To embrace solipsism is to waste valuable time and energy making flawed assumptions about objective reality.

On an energetic level, highly solipsistic people tend to be very energetically turbulent, because they allow their perceptions of what other people may or may not be thinking or saying or doing about them them them to influence them, regardless of objective reality. I suspect it is literally impossible to be energetically grounded and engaged in solipsistic thinking at the same time. Being grounded is so important to energetic health. It's time to ditch the solipsism.

How to decrease solipsistic tendencies

It's easy to say that you're not going to assume everyone is always thinking and talking about you you you all the time, but it's less easy to implement that, or to clear the feelings associated with assuming that everyone is just gossiping about you you you all day long.

The obvious and most effective way to clear solipsistic tendencies is through energy work--clear the emotions associated with past solipsism, and then go through and change the subconscious belief programs associated. The subconscious belief programs are sometimes not what you would completely expect. For example, I would consider "Everyone hates me" to be a solipsistic program, but less obviously so than a program of, "People are always talking about me" or something like that. You'd want your theta practitioner to first determine how many subconscious programs are contributing to your solipsism, and then identify them and pull and replace as they are identified.

Obviously, you can do this without energy work as well; I did. Just deciding to no longer make assumptions that everything is about me me me is a good place to start. It's like an affirmation. Some people choose to use energy work to change their thought patterns in the course of a few minutes; some people decide to repeat affirmations over and over for years until the same change is effected. Both ways can be effective. Some people just wake up one day and decide to change how they think--that's kind of what happened to me. There are a number of ways to escape the limiting tunnel-vision that is solipsism.


Solipsism is in part the tendency to assume that everyone else is preoccupied with you, that everything people write or say or do is about you. It is not a conscious mindset--it's more like the default position to which all women are set, to one degree or another. It is an opposite of the conscious mindset. Not all women are equally solipsistic. Solipsism elevates the ego while denigrating the importance of objective reality, and prevents true energetic health. Solipsism can be avoided or minimized through a raising of consciousness and energy work.

Wednesday, July 15, 2015

How to tell if you are an empath

What is an empath?

If you google the definition of "empath," what comes up is the assertion that an empath is "a person with the paranormal ability to apprehend the mental or emotional state of another individual," and chiefly found in science fiction (ha!). Empaths are essentially people who are very sensitive to the inner workings of those around them--often people, but also including things like animals, even insects or nature itself. I've even heard of mechanical empaths, who have an uncanny understanding of the inner workings of machines.
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How to tell if you are an empath:

The easiest way to tell if you are an empath is to muscle test on it, or just listen to your gut.

Do you feel shy or overwhelmed in crowds? Do you feel others' emotions very deeply? Do you sometimes lose track of whose emotions you're feeling--yours, or someone else's?

Do you easily gain weight? (Sometimes empaths put on weight as a subconscious way to protect themselves from the emotions of others.)
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Are you easily affected by the weather? Can you sense when a storm is coming because you start getting crabby, for example? Do you always feel better when the sun is shining?

Are animals (or insects) attracted to you?

Do you feel like you can sense what other people are thinking or feeling?

Do total strangers come up to you and feel comfortable talking with you?

Do you often experience synchronicity or deja vu?

Can you reliably tell when someone is lying, just based on your gut feelings?

Do you feel drawn to the healing arts? To metaphysical and holistic healing?

Do you have an addictive personality--do you struggle with issues of addiction (be it to food, the internet, sugar, your cell phone, or drugs or alcohol or pornography)?

Do you love freedom and travel?

Are you always looking for answers?

You don't have to answer all of these questions "yes" to be an empath, but the more you feel positive responses toward, the more likely you are one!

Types and Levels of Empath

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My experience has been that there are a number of different types of empath--empaths with skills in the regions of things like claircognizance, versus telepathy, versus precognition, versus emotional or physical healing, versus nature, versus animals, etc. You can be an empath in one area and not another. Actually most people are between 1-5 types of empath, as kind of a signature mix of skills that is unique to that person. I personally have 5 different empath types represented in myself, but I recently was talking to a woman who was dealing with 6 different types of empathetic skills all struggling to manifest simultaneously! Intense!

My experience has also been that people can be different "levels" of empath, if that makes sense. I rank it on a 1-10 scale, with 10 being very, very magnified empathetic skills, and 1 being on the low end of the scale, obviously. So where I have 5 types of empathetic skills represented, I rank at an overall 9 on my scale. But my emotional healing empath abilities are a 9, my precognition is a 3, my nature empathy is a 7, etc. You can discover how advanced all your skills are through muscle testing or intuition.


Let's be real: if you are looking at my blog, the chances are high you are an empath. Empaths are totally drawn to this holistic, metaphysical healing stuff. If you're interested in learning more about being an empath, I'm doing some classes on it next week. You can register here.

Tuesday, July 14, 2015

Classes for Empaths

Hello everyone!! Wanted to announce some upcoming classes--this is short notice, but these classes will be taking place next week. All classes will have recordings available for those who cannot make the live class.

SO YOU'RE AN EMPATH 101: Being An Empath 
Do you ever feel like you are taking on other people's emotions? Like the things you feel aren't always your things? Are you overwhelmed in crowded spaces or when close to lots of people? Are you very sensitive to the weather, or to music or noise? Do you have a weight problem? Are you shy? Sign up for this class to learn more about your nature as an empath, to discover what type(s) of empath you are (there are multiple types of empaths and some people are more than one type!), and specific challenges you may face depending on what type of empath you are. -$29 
Wednesday July 22, 2015, 10 AM  - 12 PM EST

SO YOU'RE AN EMPATH 201: Thriving As An Empath 
So you're an empath. What do you do about that? This class will delve into specifics of grounding, shielding, and developing boundaries and safe ways to interact with others and the world around you. Being an empath can be very draining, but it doesn't have to be! Sign up for this class to develop healthier ways to cope with the immense amount of empathetic information you as an empath have to process every day. - $45
Wednesday, July 22, 2015, 1 PM - 3 PM EST

SO YOU'RE AN EMPATH 301: Serving As An Empath 
How do you use your unique empath traits to serve others? How do you turn what can be an overwhelming "gift" into an actual gift that serves both you and those around you? Learn how to channel your gifts in healthy and helpful ways. - $45
Thursday, July 23, 2015, 10 AM - 12 PM EST

OR register for all three classes in the complete Empath Class package for $107 (a 10% discount):

I'm also now making available some recordings of previous classes. The class on muscle testing and receiving intuitive answers is of particular interest to empaths (but not necessary for the classes for empaths):

Muscle Testing and Receiving Intuitive Answers 
This two-hour class will give you the tools to muscle test effectively, as well as receive intuitive answers to your energetic questions. You will need to come well-hydrated; you will need to know which way is north where you are; and you will need to not wear leather.

Opening the Mind's Eye 
This hour-and-a-half class will help students open the mind's eye to "see" things like the human aura, energetic shields and markers, and chakras. This is an introductory class.

Intro to the Theta State 
This class teaches three ways to access the "theta" state, or waking REM. This is the brain state for effective healing. Practice going into and coming out of the theta state while awake, and learn a few things to do in that state for easy healing.

Email me with questions! awinegarduzett at gmail dot com. You know the drill. 

Sunday, July 12, 2015

inner light and the light of souls

I once had the opportunity to spend a lot of time talking about energy work with a guy who seemed very, very skeptical of the idea that souls give off light--particularly light that is discernible to the mortal eye under certain circumstances. 

However, this idea is both A) scriptural and B) backed up by accounts of people who have passed through the veil and returned.
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The scriptures have a lot to say about light and its relationship with Christ and His followers. The implication of the scriptures is that Christ is the "light which shineth, which giveth you light," and that when we follow Him we receive a portion of that light in ourselves. That light helps us judge righteously, helps us more fully live the gospel.

Even people who claim to not see auras and stuff will still often claim to be able to recognize fellow Mormons by the "light in their eyes." This is obviously not a light like your overhead lighting fixture has lights--it is a metaphysical light discerned not by the physical eye but by the spiritual eye. Weirdly, I'm pretty sure the guy who was so weirded out by this whole concept has experienced the recognition of inner light in others, but was just, I don't know, disturbed or something by the concept of it being an actual real thing that some people experience more often than others. Or the concept of inner light being something you can quantify.

There are seriously dozens and dozens of scriptures about light and related ideas in the scriptures, and I invite you to study the scriptures with a focus on light. But here are just a few before I move on to the NDE I recently read about and the survivor's commentary on the inner light of souls:
Doctrine and Covenants 88:11
11 And the light which shineth, which giveth you light, is through him who enlighteneth your eyes, which is the same light that quickeneth your understandings;

Doctrine and Covenants 84:45
45 For the word of the Lord is truth, and whatsoever is truth is light, and whatsoever is light is Spirit, even the Spirit of Jesus Christ.

2 Corinthians 4:6
6 For God, who commanded the light to shine out of darkness, hath shined in our hearts, to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.
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Doctrine and Covenants 6:21
21 Behold, I am Jesus Christ, the Son of God. I am the same that came unto mine own, and mine own received me not. I am the light which shineth in darkness, and the darkness comprehendeth it not.
 This is the Bible Dictionary entry on the Light of Christ.

This morning I got on Facebook and found an article about a man who died, came back, and decided to become a healer. Here is his observation on the light of spirits:

"They were souls, souls that emanated light, each one had a different amount of light, some had so much light it was like looking into to sun, others had very little light but were right there," said Hermosillo as he sipped on a cup of water. 
As for the souls projecting light, Hermosillo said the light came with meaning for each soul.
"The light was a reflection of who they were on Earth, so if an individual was judgmental, hateful, had vanity and ego, they had a little bit of light," said Hermosillo. "Those who were kind, loving, helped others in their community, just good souls, they were shining brighter.
As for the lights, Hermosillo said the brightness told a story a story about each soul. Some were bright, others dim, but Alex said he also saw what he called, 'the great lights.'
"Buddha, Jesus, Mary, even Martin Luther King's and Mother Teresa, they had so much more light, I saw them, I could see them."
We all project our inner light, the reflection of how much we have made our souls like Christ. This was an interesting read this morning.

Friday, July 10, 2015

watch out for energies shifting!

Two nights ago I woke up to find that something major had happened to my home--an energetic meridian had shifted on the earth's surface, leading to the creation of basically a negative whirlpool of energy in my own bedroom. I'd woken up to the most horrific nightmare I may have ever had, and I thought--something put that in my mind. When I looked around the room, I realized that there were plenty of entities that would have been up to the task of implanting some nightmares in my home. I cast them out, and then did some repair work on the new portal (which is now gone).

I bring this up because when I inspected the homes of several loved ones shortly thereafter, I realized that they, too, had developed brand new energetic hotspots in their houses overnight--some good, but more not good. If you are noticing a serious shift in the energetic makeup of your house and home, it may be due to a meridian shift that has opened up your house to things that it is not normally open to.

Just as the human body has energetic meridians,
so does the earth. Right now the earth's energetic lines
are undergoing a major shift. This shift is creating
new energetic hotspots where they didn't exist
before. Image here.

Unclean entities entering the home through new "portals" created by shifts in the earth's electromagnetic field.


Follow the instructions in D&C 50 for casting out unclean entities, and then pray for the entrance those things have been using to seal up. It may take a few prayers or really just extra faith. I had to try a few different things to get mine to close up. You can muscle test on if there are unclean things in your home, or if the portal has been closed, or if there is something more that needs to be done to restore your home's energy to its highest potential.

If you feel an energy shift in your home and suspect this has something to do with it, you can always reach out with questions. It is so important to keep our homes as places where we can easily feel the Holy Ghost.


I once upon a time had the super misfortune of having some long-term houseguests who somehow were inviting unclean things into my home every day. I would close up the energy holes letting things in, but these guests would just open them again. Not intentionally, of course--they don't believe in energy things--but somehow, I'm not really sure how, they managed to invite evil spirits into my home every day until the very last of the guests left. The earth's energy shifts are not the only things that create negative portals in a home; sometimes they are created by the actual people living in the home. This is one reason it is so important to be selective in who you let stay with you, and why it is so important to be cautious yourself of what activities are going on in your home that could be opening up energetic windows and allowing in negative things.


Be mindful of the energy in your home as the earth begins some major energetic shifting. Here's an article detailing some of the shifts we are currently undergoing. If your home does not feel like a haven of peace and light, consider investigating for the presence of unwanted energy patterns.

Saturday, July 4, 2015

why I haven't been blogging on preparedness

Hey all. So I've been blogging only sporadically this year. A few days ago I woke up and felt impressed to make some changes on my blog and then share why.

I just went ahead and took down some of the posts that some people might consider "fear-mongering." That was never my intention with blogging on world events or preparedness. In the past, I had felt that I should leave my posts on world events and preparedness up, because I just felt that someone out there still needed to read them. Today, I've taken many of them down.

We are all in different places in our lives. Some of us are ready to face certain things without fear, and others are not. For me, reading about things like diseases or changes on the world stage are not fear-inducing, and frankly, I felt that I had made it clear in my posts that there is no reason to fear if we are spiritually prepared. That is always true, incidentally: Spiritual preparedness is the most important type of preparedness anyone can do. But looking back over the posts in questions, I could see how people would skim over those parts or put more stock in the raw information rather than the conclusion that the answer here is cleansing the inner vessel, and coming close to Jesus Christ.

Today, I recognize that even though I personally did not find those posts fear-inducing, other people are frightened by world events and talk of the negative entities in our world. So I took those posts down and if you want to read about NDE comparisons of plagues and pestilences, or need to know more about various negative influences in the world today, email me and I'll send you the posts. They are saved as drafts exactly as originally posted so you can still have access to the original information if you specifically request it.

I did leave up my post on the Shemitah and also my posts on how-tos, such as how to store your long-term food storage in practically free food safe plastic containers, and various stuff I have stocked up on. If I feel prompted I may remove my Shemitah post as well. But so far it has been the most comprehensively-researched post on the topic that I've seen anywhere, as I recall. So it stays for now. I hope talk of the Jewish calendar and Hebrew tradition doesn't send anyone into a fear-induced tailspin.

My family is still prepping. We still feel led by the Spirit. My swarm of bees actually showed up within 15 hours of a heartfelt prayer on if we really needed to prep, or if it were all in our minds. When we took the question to God, the answer was Deseret--an answer we took to mean yes.

Not all prepping is fear-induced. This is not all root chakra issues. Sometimes God prompts those who are financially able to prepare on behalf of others. I know God always takes care of me and I don't really feel like most of my preps are actually for my family. In storing them, I have felt prompted to store them in ways that will make them easily distributed to others.

Many people are not feeling any sort of urgency to prepare, and that is fine and further, it is not a sign that they are somehow not spiritual enough or anything like that. God asks us to do what we are able and willing to do. If you don't have a permanent home and you don't have spare time and money, you may not be specifically asked to obtain a year's supply of food, or a nice tent, or whatever. God meets us where we are at. If we have desires to serve, He leads us to ways we will be able to serve. That means something different for everybody.

God is orchestrating things so that we are all where we need to be when we need to be there. I have been personally told about the nature of a number of world events I will personally see come to pass. I have been told these things in my patriarchal blessing and in personal revelation. I've been told some things I personally need to do to get ready for all that. But, notably, none of my family members' PBs have anything to do with the stuff my PB is about. We all have different missions. Part of my mission is to prepare for upcoming events I have been shown--prepare for myself and for others--and I want to recognize that that is just not part of everyone's mission. If you're living paycheck to paycheck, it might just not be in your mission to stock up on random goods in order to give to others in times of need. And that is fine. You may not feel any sort of urgency to prepare temporally at all. And that is fine too.

The only important thing here is that we are all following the Spirit and following the prophet. The prophets have warned us of things that will come if our nation does not repent. This is one reason why we are in the middle of the Hastening of the Work. We each have a responsibility to warn our neighbors (see D&C 88:81 and this talk by Elder Eyring). This will mean different things for each of us.

The prophets have encouraged us to prepare temporally through things like food, water, and money storage. Are you praying about what things you need to acquire or do to be prepared for whatever is coming for you personally? Again: we all have different missions. For all I know, I'm prepping for my husband's job loss or a severe thunderstorm that takes out the power to my neighborhood for three weeks. There are situations in all of our lives--and our neighbors' lives--that require preparedness. If we listen to the Spirit and ask in faith what we should be doing to prepare for ourselves and for others, we will be led to the proper steps to take and information to acquire.

God has told us that He has never given us a temporal commandment--all His commandments are spiritual (see D&C 29:34). As the Church's website states, "Members of the Church have been counseled for many years to be prepared for adversity. Preparation, both spiritual and temporal, can dispel fear. With the guidance of Church leaders, individual members and families should prepare to be self-reliant in times of personal or widespread emergency." Preparedness dispels fear and as a Church we have been counseled to engage in prayerful preparation.

Regardless, my purpose has never been to "fear-monger" or anything like that. God asks us to prepare in every way, to prepare every needful thing. I don't know that I will be blogging much about preparedness in the coming days or weeks or months; I still feel it's important, but I also feel that The Lord will preach His own sermons. I urge you to pray about whether or not preparedness is something that is important for you and your family.